I had an argument with someone recently, someone who asked me why, if I was a stay at home mom, my kids had problems. Wasn't the point of staying home with my kids, this person said, to avoid all of the problems? To make sure that things went well for everyone?
And I'm facing things in my life that are just dragging me down.
And I'm tired. And feeling like no matter how hard I try, my best will never ever ever be good enough.
Why does this person, who is close to me, think that my staying home, and basically sacrificing myself for the longest time, was a waste of time? And how to make this person understand that being home with my children was a choice that I made, in order to be here when the problems happened - for no matter what your home situation, they surely will - and be present?
I'm tired of feeling beaten up. I'm tired of being selfless and being surrounded by selfish.
Tomorrow had better be a better day, or I'm going to cut someone.