And neither do black tunnels. And today was a day that was, mostly, a ride of deep darkness through a black, downward spiral of a tunnel.
I just do not know how much more I can take of this.
My two atypical (neuro a typical, which I'm not quite sure is the correct terminology, but I'm too fried to care) are both floundering, and I'm really tired of dealing with it. Yes. I know. It could be WORSE. Thank you. I've heard that before. And YES, I know, you see very little evidence of this at school. I'm delighted for you. You have NO idea HOW delighted I am for you. Can I BE YOU?
Because me? I see it in SPADES AT HOME.
BTW - I do not CARE if YOU'VE NEVER seen this person having a fit. Should I TAPE one for you? I can, and then play it back at approximately one hundred zillion decibels. And when said fit occurs in your general proximity, you'd better HOPE and pray that you haven't just had YOUR wisdom teeth out and a flailing hand smacks YOU on your face, which causes you to scream and pop a stitch and bleed while unmedicated -
yes. Let us fervently pray that you can escape said action.
And a person who has attention issues and disorganization issues cannot be expected to REMEMBER everything that you - a generic you - toss in that direction at what might as well be the speed of light, and relying upon someone ELSE to remind said disorganized individual - when that someone else may very well be distracted or, I dunno, DISORGANIZED AS WELL - it's like, I dunno, the biggest ball of crap I've ever seen. And telling me that You've never seen (!) a student so disorganized! - you know, that's so not helpful either.
I've got a GREAT idea! I don't know why I never thought of it before!
Instead of making me feel like a terrible, horrid parent - and telling me, repeatedly, when I tell you that said individual punches their own HEAD in frustration, that We just don't see evidence of this at school! - let's let GO of the BLAME and the fault indicators and just address the issue. There's a problem. If I SAY there's a problem, you can trust me - I don't have the time or inclination or energy to CREATE a problem. It's December. And we've known this is a problem since, maybe, three years ago.
And being one person that bullies a parent because you are in a position of authority is so very wrong and I'm calling a fast and full STOP to the shenanigans as of this very second.
Yes. I'm grumpy and I'm irritable and I'm flippin' overwhelmed. Let me ask you this; are YOU dealing with what I'm dealing with - all by yourself on any given day?
I am ONE person. I'm doing this with a spouse who is gone every.single.homework/activity/practice/assembly/bedtime. And I must be doing something right, because 5 of 6 kids have honor roll - my college kid has a 3.5 GPA and he's working on becoming a police officer - and three of us are graduating from a very strenous Black Belt program that took 4 YEARS to accomplish. My house is reasonably clean, my kids eat healthy, homecooked meals and if I look grumpy and have little to no patience half much of the time - try being me for a day and then get back to me.
I'm fully aware that this is a pity party. I do not care. And if you want to comment in a constructive manner, please, do so, for I'd love to hear something that's beneficial. But if you want to tell me that It could be so much worse -
do me a favor and just don't. I would really like you to keep your kneecaps.