Deep and contemplative thoughts for a Monday:
Do you ever go around doing good, as much good as one person possibly can do, and yet feel, deep inside your soul, that will never be enough? That is, that you could never do enough good in some peoples eyes. Do you ever feel as if it's futile to do good?
I wonder things like that sometimes, and I'm convinced that it makes me a little bit "off". That other, more normal people, don't have the same kind of thoughts.
I suppose I'm just a bit more reflective than normal, due to the funeral I attended today. There's nothing quite like seeing someone's entire life in almost bullet points to make you wonder how your own life will be presented.
And it makes one wonder, will I be remembered for good things, or for those really stupid things that I've done in my past? Everyone does some really stupid things, that aren't "big stupid" things, but the stupid things that almost everyone does. I think they're called "growth experiences". I'm not talking about things like murder, but just those dumb things that we've all done.
And if you tell me you've never done them, I'll point and call you a liar.
And do you ever wonder how those really really good people came to be that way? I've often heard that those really good people have something to atone for in their past. But I wonder if that could be the case.
So I guess it boils down to these simple questions: are people in inherently good or bad? Can bad people become good people? And if you've done bad things, will other people ever let you forget them?
Told you it was deep and contemplative.:)