Today being the first day of Lent, I spent some time trying to figure out how I was going to challenge myself and change myself in the name of Lent - probably my least favorite Liturgical season ever.
I know. I'm just like everyone else. I don't know anyone who says, "Oh, yay! Lent!" Except for the nuns who teach at my kids school, who all, to a person, greeted me after Mass yesterday with "Happy Ash Wednesday!"
They are certainly WAY more devout than I will ever, ever be - and I'm sure that there's something to having a happy Lent. They have found their way through, while I am still struggling. But, we all are, so I guess there's a grace in that, yes?
I suppose I could give up Chocolate. I don't eat much of it, so that's not a struggle.
I toyed with giving up soda. I'm not holy enough to do that, because I am seriously (once again, sigh) addicted - and I know that is the purpose of giving something up, to try to force yourself to be free from those things that tie you down - but I never feel as if I'm being holy when I deny myself. Mostly, I just feel pissed off and irritated.
So I turned my mind to doing something instead of giving something up.
I could make myself exercise every day - but I should already be doing that.
I could, as one friend did, vow to fold each piece of wash as soon as the dryer finished and stay up to time on all of the laundry, never going to bed without it all being done, as an offering to her family, whom she prayed for as she did the wash. i don't have the desire to be a slave to the dryer, and I'm just not that into folding. I prefer to do 5-6 loads and pile them up and then fold all at once.
I could pray more. I've already started doing that, on the recommendation of the grief counselor I've been seeing - yes, I'm doing that, no I didn't tell you but maybe I should have. I do a short Bible verse of the day, and every time I wake up during the night, which is roughly 39047574 times, I pray at least a decade of the rosary for two friends I have who are struggling with cancer. I've been able to finish the entire five decades for about a month now, all before 5 a.m.
Insomnia is God's tool, I'm telling you what. (I almost said a different word there, but I'm trying to keep it PG here, being that I'm on the topic of religion and all...)
So, being that my house is my breaking point right now, what with the fact that no one picks up after themselves and it's almost always chaotic and untidy - I've decided that it means we have too much stuff and need to spend a time decluttering. I know that I hate the fact that my shorties have super untidy rooms, and yes, it has to do with the fact that they are super lazy and don't like to pick up - but also, maybe they have too much stuff. So let's streamline. Let's declutter. Let's get rid of stuff that maybe someone else out there could use
or maybe it just needs to go to the landfill.
I'm doing the 40 bags in 40 days challenge.
What are you doing for Lent - if you observe? Want to do the 40 bag challenge with me?