I used to have a bucket list. I did. It's not that I've done all of the things on it - far from it, I think I've done four - it's just that, for now,
It doesn't mean anything to me.
I mean, the very nature of a "bucket list" is things that you want to do before you, well, kick the bucket. And it's not that I think I'll live forever. It's just that I'm really super very enormously busy - and so I can't seem to think of anything I'd need to do to make myself happy.
I've been to a lot of really cool places. I would still like to visit Ireland, Scotland, and the Greek Islands - so, I guess, you might say that those visits would be on a bucket list. But I used to want to be able to say I'd run a marathon -and right now, that sounds like the most torture I could ever hope to endure.
No running for me.
Although. I did do a Color Me Rad race, and that was super, super fun.
At one time, I thought I'd want to live to be over 100 - and I might still want that, because the thought of leaving my kids behind is almost too much to bear - even though tonight, the shorties were put to bed at 7:30. (It was THAT kind of night, right there.) But I've seen what happens to the body when it gets old, and the loss of control, the loss of dignity, then eventual scraping along that happens because there really is no other alternative - that just isn't pleasant either.
I visited a Pork Farm this past week, and got to see how the bacon is made - from insemination to butchering, I saw it all. It was immensely fascinating and thought provoking and I'll write about it at some point, when the tour has faded from everyone else's mind and it's a speck in the past. Second only to the trip I took to Harley-Davidson - it was my most favorite sponsored trip I've been on.
Sponsored trips have added a level to my life, have helped to fill in chunks of education and given me a glimpse into the outside world. I knew virtually nothing about 13 year old child brides ad the troubles that they encountered daily until I visited the United Nations Foundation. Had no idea the level of research, thought and care that went into vaccines until I visited a plant. No idea how much science goes into vegetable juices, frozen meals, cars and trucks and motorcycles. The work that companies everywhere do to keep us safe - it's just mesmerizing.
I rode with the Patriot Guard riders. I've done musical theater and ballets galore and flash mobs and whatever strikes my fancy - if I can do it, I wil.
All of this is super rambling, and there's really no point to it except to say - I've done some cool stuff in my life and met some great people and I wouldn't change a thing. Making a list of what needs to happen next makes me feel as if I'll close the door on some fantastic opportunities and I am having too much fun to ever change that pattern.
Go with the flow and be astonished at where you end up.
That's my new motto.