MidCentury

So, hi. 

Yesterday, I turned 50. 

Here I am. For better or for worse. 

Fifty seems to me an age that I never thought I'd reach, and two years ago, it seemed virtually impossible. And yet - 

Here I am

A little bit battered, a little bit bruised, a lot different than I was two years ago, much different in terms of my feelings with regards to relationships and friendships. I've learned a tremendous amount 

maybe more than I really wanted to learn about some situations and some people

but in the end, it's worked out exactly the way it's supposed to work out. I've become the person I am, for better or for worse. I'm still growing and evolving. 

I was told recently that I've made many choices recently that go against who I have been in the past, and that's fine. I don't necessarily like who I was

in some aspects

but I did the best I could with what I had and what I knew

and when you know better you do better. 

And all we can do in this life is keep moving forward. When you feel like you can't keep moving forward, you tread until you can move forward. I'm no longer treading and I'm moving forward. 

Happy Birthday to me. 

Comments

[Tonya]

Welcome to the +50 club! I'm glad you made it and that you keep writing!

[Kathryn]

Happy Birthday Carmen. May God bless you and keep you and make His face shine upon you.

[Kelly Roe]

well Happy Birthday! Your a Scorpio too!
My "counter" just clicked to 68!
I know exactly what You mean!
I was going thru "Carmen Fix DT's" was pining for My next "fix"!
You are beacon in the night for Me! You bouy Me up and encourage Me and make Me laugh!!

[Addy]

Happy Birthday! Enjoy your journey I think you are doing great.